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So I activated my ask fm you also want to activate uh?????! I tweeeeted abt blog then you just had to put up a new blog post uh???????? Seriously boy. Damn glad that we are over. Yes silent break but whatever sia give up on whatever you've done all these while. Waited for nothing and I'm so dumb to wait HAH

Why

Hahahahahaha it seems like we're not meant to meet each other. You are busy and hah busy with your soccer stuffs and all and idk man. Hahahahaha it's just so funny.. I can't..... 😢😢  yep I wanted to meet you last Sunday after the Jap party, after your soccer but haha no you can't make it. Okay fine. Was hoping to meet you either on tues or wed since I'm in the morning shift but nope you didn't mention anythingg. & yep I took the initiative to tell you my results without you asking me but hahaha for you, I need to ask and whaaaat you just said oh sorry forgot to tell. Hahahahaha so fuunny. And this weekend. Hais YOU told me that you are gonna confirm helped out with kendarat on sat and I told myself wth you told me sat we are gonna meet. So you expect me to do kendarat with you la on sat after me working 5days straight!!!!! Ouch. I was really looking forward to Saturday because I wanna meet you but hahahaahhahaah 😂😂 okay fine I asked Faizah and Herdy all out and okay fine they are not free so yep I helped out with kendarat because I was hoping to meet you there. Okay fine. Then what in the morning just now you are like "what? I thought you didn't want that's why I never go. It's so far for you. You are not tired meh?" WOW WOW WOW! Funny huh huh huh!!!!!! 😂😂😂  okay fine like duh la i was so pissed! Whatever sia I'm so tired already. Tired of hoping. Tired of waiting. IDK I really dunno what to do. Idk what's our relationship now. I mean seriously. There's still no explanation as to what happened all these while. And yep here I am laughing to myself telling myself how stupid I am. Waiting for a guy who's not...... Idk. Yep I know he love soccer. Yes I think I am being so understanding uh like seriously. I'm so tired already. Why am I so foolish?? Why???? Why??? What am I waiting for??????? 😢😪😥

17th 🍰

Oh well yeap 21st September. Yep my birthday. Yep not important tho. I know. 😔  guess what have I been doing!!!!!!!   I mean like literally. It's so sad. Just went to town with mum for a while and yep thought of having lunch with Omar since tmr we are not able to meet but ha ha ha too late 😔  then I went back home and lepak. Lepak till now. & people wished me, telling me to enjoy my day, have fun and shingzzz and I'm like 'how to have fun alone? How to enjoy alone when no one is free to celebrate your birthday with you?' 😢  sad huh. Life. This is my life. I mean..... Hais I'm sad. Celebrating with the wolves next week instead of tmr cos I thought of going out with Omar tmr but hey there's jap party with le cousins! 🎉🎊🎈🎁  so yep idk. I mean I don't wanna make any plans. I'm tired. 😪  I knew my birthday this year is gonna be like any normal day. Well in fact every year it is gonna be like this. Hah not surprised. I mean idk why do I even bother to give people birthday present and surprised them for their birthday when what I get in return for my birthday is just normal sad boring day 😢😢  and my stupid eyes just can't stop tearing up since the ytd night. Gosh!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭 

💔

Y'know it's sad and it really hurts when people that mean the most, hurt the worst. I mean look, Omar whom really mean the most to me hahahaha actually unfollowed me on twitter again and what back to what had happened before? Not talking to each other again? Oh so now what's the reason behind it? I'm tired. I really am. I'm giving up. I shouldn't have go on and talk to him when he was starting a conversation with me back then. I regretted. 😢  What kind of relationship only communicate thru fb chat? No message, no whatsapp, no call. So I really think that we are not in a relationship huh. So we are just friends huh? I mean look, we didn't really open up to each other. Just like what happened last year. I still have no idea why you suddenly stopped talking to me and being an asshole(well that's what you called yourself), you didn't even bother and take your own initiative and tell me why, what's wrong, what happened back then & what you suddenly chatted with me asking me how's life and you are sorry. Sorry without explaining to me why. Why why why!!!!!!!! 😢😔 & then for the past few months ever since your birthday everything seems to be normal, it's like as though nothing had happened huh? yep but I'm still wondering, I'm still curious but I pretend. I pretend nothing had happened back then. 😔  Y'know I really wanna celebrate my birthday with you. Spending my day with you. You've never done so. Last year everything was sucked up because of you, because you ignored me. This year, yes I understand that your sister is coming back. I totally do that's the reason why you can't celebrate with me but... Just a short meet up would mean a lot to me. 

BUT HAIS RINA FORGET IT!!!!! 

What a surprised me is that you literally UNFOLLOWED me on twitter right after the day I said I was sad and the reason may or may not be you. This makes me even more sad and idk what to do now. Whether or not to chat with you when you are online or just shut myself and keep quiet. like wts c'mon I was feeling super down on that day and you just had to ask me that qn????? SERIOUSLY?!?! Hais. I shouldn't have talked to you. I regretted. I'm gonna forget everything. Well as much as I could. As for now really, Goodbye 👋